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Tuesday, June 02, 2009
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Quit alot of thing happened. I am abit confuse now. Need time to fix it all back in shape. Had a long chat w joy and found out that, 3 of my friends including her is going oversea to study. So happy for them but at the same time, feel alittle sad. They are leaving singapore. Joy keep remind me to do the thing i love. She say i keep forcing myself to do thing i don't like. In my poly day i was struggling w my IT sch wk. True but i love my poly days and i could make through it becos of my poly friends. If not i think i will just quit school. Since IT is not what i love, i change my job to chopping of ppt. I don't really had any passion in chopping ppt. I do it just becos of money and easy job. W no money, i can't even survies so forget abt dreams. Come to think of it, what did i like to do abt??? Soon school is going to reopen. I am studying a course that i had no feeling in it. I don't dislike but i don't like it either. I study becos i want a degree. My life is just dame meaningless. Compare to my friends who going oversea to study w lots of passion in the thing they do. Wish them good luck. So forget abt my dreams, becos i don't have the resources to support me. Just stick w chopping ppt and complete my study for now. After that i will promise to be good to myself. =) (Maybe) For this june holiday before i start sch and become busy and stress, i will enjoy till the max. At least to rest at home. Enjoy being alone. Becos of my wk, i had only one rest day. Usually it been taken up by family, bf or friends. Nothing is left for myself. Like what zhihong say, i should at least take 30min a day to myself. Just being alone will do. I had too many thing to do that i lost myself. Next is to wait for 10 june'09. Hope i will be fine. So for now on, i will try my very best not to anyhow think. Try to be positive. Hope my mama don't give me any pressure regrading money, i am in need of it. I already tell her i could not give her money next month. She was dame angry. No matter what pls don't create any more stub for me. I really cannot take it. I will try to be strong. =) Jia you. (Pls don't ask what happened. When everything is over it's done. Just wish me good luck and take care =))
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