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Tuesday, January 26, 2010
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Life is so full of up and down. I didn't expect my life to become like this. Sometimes i felt that my life is like some media-crop drama. During the holiday trip in dec, it was ... ... don't need to repeat myself. Anyway it over. After the trip, world war 3 b/w my sis and mum for a week. My mum compliant dominant pain on 30 dec, acc her to see doc the whole night and went to work. It was urine infection. I am dame tired, but i can't took MC. Had to save it for future use. While i went for count down with sir, my bro acc my mum to hospital. This time it big issue. The doc finally investigate that there was a lump in the large intestine. Guess what, the dame "good" doc took 2 week to investigate out. In this 2 week, it dame suffering for me. My mum metal condition got very bad. She act abnormally. At first, i though it was her usual stub she play since young. I was dame angry with her. Really didn't know what she want. But as she become more abnormally, i start to believe maybe she is really not right up there. The doc in NUH really cmi. First there took so long time to investigate the problem. Than, they told me different reason of her like that. I also confuse what happen. In the end, the last reason they told me was, it because of the antibiotic they give my mum that cause the metal problem. Because of her metal problem, she is unable to discharge till now. I try to spend my off day with her in hospital. Freaky speaking, it very very tired. As her metal problem got worst, i really cannot take it. I didn't want to visit her. I will just cry out infront of her. Seeing her doing abnormal thing and that person is your mum. I felt so hurt down there. I felt so helpless. After some crying, i start to get use to it and accpact the fact. It really emotionally and physically drain. While this is going on, i was tio to write statement and scold by top management for not stepping out of the counter. I was given two option, to transfer to admin or resign. I work in government sector and yet this is what the top management people do to me. If my mum is not in this condition, i won't let this matter rest. I will make sure i make a big hu ha to the news and HQ. How can he say such a things. Heartless people. The lucky thing is, i got my confirm status after one years of probation period before this things happen. Wahaha! They can't do anything to me. I will make sure i stay here. I believe in karma. What goes around come around. You can choose to be busted but one day someone else will going to do the same things to you. Chinese new year is coming, the doc say my mum could discharge in condition that there is someone at home taking care of my mum. We try the day care nursing home, but no nursing home want to take my mum due to her metal problem. If i were to bring home, no one could have the time to take care of her, unless i quit my job. But if i were to quit my job, what abt my school fee. School is going to start, i wonder how much could i take it before i break down. Since so many bad thing had already happen, i hope it will be the end of the bad and the good will come. I just hope i won't break down. Sorry people, most of the outing i am unable to make it. I am alittle too busy to get involved. Have fun and enjoy. I am very tired, i just want a simple life.
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